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Here is my list of books read this year. It stands at 106 and unless I finish the one I'm reading now by tomorrow (unlikely) it will stay that way.
( Books Read )
I've also been thinking back on this year, on my thought patterns, and what I want to do in 2009. One thing I definitely do WAY TOO MUCH of is worry. Worry about money, worry about the future, worry about the moment, worry about what will happen next. Sometimes, I feel like I'm a million steps ahead of myself and whatever is happening now I'm missing because I worry about how this will affect the future, if the future will be ok, if people I know and love will be ok.
A lot of this has to be with my Aspie's. If I worry, if I "control" the situation, then things can't get out of hand. I won't make weird hand motions, I won't say the wrong thing, I won't do the wrong thing. To an extent, this works. To a large extent, however, it doesn't worry and it only drains me and it only drains my relationships. It tires me out and I want to do less worrying in 2009.
I don't want to make this a resolution as I don't fully believe in resolutions and resolutions push me far too much towards the "I should do this" or "I should do that" sort of mentality. Rather, it's a thought and idea to keep in mind and work towards and keep in my heart and mind.
( Books Read )
I've also been thinking back on this year, on my thought patterns, and what I want to do in 2009. One thing I definitely do WAY TOO MUCH of is worry. Worry about money, worry about the future, worry about the moment, worry about what will happen next. Sometimes, I feel like I'm a million steps ahead of myself and whatever is happening now I'm missing because I worry about how this will affect the future, if the future will be ok, if people I know and love will be ok.
A lot of this has to be with my Aspie's. If I worry, if I "control" the situation, then things can't get out of hand. I won't make weird hand motions, I won't say the wrong thing, I won't do the wrong thing. To an extent, this works. To a large extent, however, it doesn't worry and it only drains me and it only drains my relationships. It tires me out and I want to do less worrying in 2009.
I don't want to make this a resolution as I don't fully believe in resolutions and resolutions push me far too much towards the "I should do this" or "I should do that" sort of mentality. Rather, it's a thought and idea to keep in mind and work towards and keep in my heart and mind.
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